Men.Dot.Style-Obsessives: Evan Yurman

When I get on-this is what I want to drive-the green car. That car is crazy.

Random Thoughts...

right now it's nine o' clock am and i'm sitting in the kitchen really really tired and I'm thinkin'; lately i've been wildin' out a bit-listenin' to the wrong music, i smoked a lil' bit of a black and mild and i feel kinda guilty or convicted no no...i feel ashamed... I just don't get this life thing man...all i know is that in life all i want to be is a strong man of God, but i've had a cyclical history of doing good for God and then fallin' back into sin...at times in my walk with Christ I feel like I take two steps forward and three steps back...at times i must admit i get mad at God; I feel like this "God you see me tryin' to do right-you know my heart so you know I want to do right so why do you let me slip back into sin when you know I don't want too, why won't you just like zap me and give me a whole bunch of strength to do right!" but man ...this Christ walk is not easy, today I deleted some friends from my facebook and myspace because some people are better forgotten, but at times I feel alone, I love God and like for a huge part of my life I've been cuttin' people off that were "bad" influences and now I find myself alone. I've been cuttin' people off for so long that I forgot how to make good genuine friends...there are some cool people around but i don't really have anything in common with them ya know, so at 24 I find myself in an odd predicament, I forgot how to make friends, like real friends and not shallow acquaintances or associates. Life is just blank to me like it doesn't make sense, I feel like if I'm tryin' to do right and my motives and agenda's are right then how do I end up messin' somethin up in my life, what I don't understand about life is that why don't things work out the way you plan at times, i'm just at a point in my life where i want to do something right that i planned, life is not panning out the way i thought it would as far as me being a better person like i just want the "feeling" of I PLANNED THIS, I WORKED VERY HARD AT THE PLAN, AND I SUCCEEDED AT EXECUTING THE PLAN! I just want to do right! that's it for now i gotta get a good nap and then go to my second job but Jesus I know your listenin' keep my protected and don't let go of me, i know i mess up but I have dedicated my life to doin right by you, don't count me out-you're all i got man, you're my only hope, help me help me teach me and be patient with me. I love you and I trust you.

Feelin' kinda rockstarish...

I just came from my barber and he didn't do me right- I wanted the jim Jones nine o'clock shadow mane and he didn't even come close so after about a week I'd say I will be flossin' the Jim Jones Shadow so stay tuned folks'....I know what you're thinkin'...I can be very random at times.

Two Thumbs for Kim

I watch the Kardashians every once in a blue and I kinda have mixed emotions on Kim for real. Sometimes I see her and I think to myself she is bad and other times I'm like she is maybe a bit over-rated but after seeing her in this complex shoot I'm thinkin': "okay, it's official-she is right" and after seein' the chicks Ray-J has on his show I'm kinda thinkin' that he made the wrong move..Kim is def wifey material.

Life is.....

I was thinkin' to myself about life and I was just thinkin' about what life really is and I've come to the conclusion that "life is everything and life is nothing". I know that sounds weird but it makes so much sense to me right now man. "Life is everything", it's your dreams, your hopes, your love, your substance, your family, your passion, your ups and downs, your rights and your wrongs, your big leaps and short steps, your high jumps and long falls, and it's so big yet so small, so long yet so fast, so linear yet so cyclical, so stormy and so sunny......Life is everything. However right now I feel like "Life is nothing". Life is this big open vacuum waiting to be filled, life is a book full of empty pages. Life is just full of opportunity and I'm thinkin to myself, "I'm really taking advantage of Life". Like right now, I'm livin' man! I'm taking Life and I'm writing my story across this open canvass. What kind of story are you writing? Look at this pic, and think to yourself what story is your life telling, what movie is your life? Is it an action thriller? Horror movie? or think what chapter of your life are you in? How are you doing so far in your life's story? and most importantly how do you want your life's story to end? and what are you doing to bring about that ending? Just a thought!

Make it Happen!! Keep pushin'!! and may God be the glory.