The Manifestation of Dreams: Dream to reality process!

I work two jobs and one of them is the night shift. So when I'm not working there are times when it's hard for me to sleep. I'm on vacation right now and I'm up late. It's 5:28 am. I just finished watching the movie the Soloist with Jamie Foxx and Robert Downey Jr. I must say not only was I inspired but the movie got the wheels in my mind turning overtime. If you haven't seen the movie you really should take a look at it. The film is bound to give you a new perspective about the homeless and quite possibly cause you to question the decisions you make today that ultimately mold your future. A brief sum up of the movie; A desperate news writer for the LA times fighting to stay gainfully employed in a company undergoing layoffs and cutbacks, finds a peculiar subject for his articles. The topic of discussion is a homeless man by the name of Nathaniel Ayers. Nathaniel is a former student of Juliard and is quite possibly a musical genius. The writer becomes intrigued at Nathaniel's talent and as a result they form a friendship and etc. The thing about this movie that has my mind going and this is something that I ponder from time to time; How does a person make their dreams a reality!! What do you have to do to make every bright idea every good deed every fantasy transform from a thought in your head to actuality? That is the question that I think about most often. How do we change our reality? Sometimes I look at a homeless person and I think to myself: That guy/girl has a family somewhere, a mother, a father maybe even kids, how did he/she get to that place in their life? What decisions did they make and what went wrong? I was praying to God after watching this movie and I said in prayer that I don't want to ruin my life by erroneous decision making. I said to God in prayer that I don't want to be another talented individual with gifts that I know can make an impact on the world for the Kingdom of God that just lost his way. Staying in the will of God is not easy, I'm straining to walk in His way and not be in the way! As I was writing I thought of the Bible, it's a road map to our future. It does hold the answers to our future, meaning it is a GPS system for us on our journey to our dream destinations. I'm struggling to take direction. I live for Jesus Christ but walking according to his GPS system can be very taxing at times. I find myself going places that I don't want to go, places that our not pleasing or gratifying. Right now, I'm in a place in my life I don't want to be in, I'm in a place in which I have nothing that I want. Don't get me wrong I have everything I need-thank God-but it's just not what I imagined. My dream and the manifestation of it looks very dim and far off. I keep making decisions that I'm not proud of and these decisions have consequences that aren't easy to get over. I'm trying to go thru the fiery trials of life as a good soldier but things aren't going as planned. To sum it up in my trainers word's while working out at the gym "I have to build a higher tolerance for pain". The pain of life can be agonizing but I find that by keeping Christ first that pain makes sense, life is best defined like such the sequence of unpredictable events that our beyond ones control. That's it, that's life another way to put it is "Stuff happens". Right now I'm just trying to make sense of this "stuff". I want my "stuff" to be full of substance, meaning and purpose. I'm fighting to believe that I can do all things through Christ; The hardest part about believing that is the "I can" part. Amidst my failure's and my seemingly cyclical screw ups I'm fighting to believe that "I can" through Christ. Why? Because He is the only way, Jesus is the route to take in pursuit of our dream destinations. Christ works!! He is the way to make sense of all this "stuff". The title of this blog is the "The Manifestation of Dreams: Dream to reality process", in writing this blog I've answered my own question of "How do your dreams become a reality?", the answer follow Christ. The Process of this manifestation is us allowing Christ to take control and it's us releasing full and complete control through faith. It's not easy but I'm striving for that result everyday and I'm just praying that Christ loves me and allows me walk in His path for my life after the mistakes I've made, you know. I'm fighting to believe the "I can", and I will accomplish everything my heart is set on because God will provide. I will obey and follow his word, it may take me some time but ultimately I will end up at the finish line. I am an overcomer and all of my dreams will manifest. If success was easy everyone would do it!! I'm more then a conquerer, I've already won!!

New Nike SB releases for August

These are the new SB releases for August, whatcha think? I like all of em' to be honest but the hate for these kickz have been crazy!  What happen is Nike cut back from the normal way the make dunks by taking away the fat laces and fat tongues.  I don't think it's that much of a big deal I mean if you have a "swag" you can pull it off, but hey that's just me.

Motivation...

That's something that is definitely needed to make it and when I say "make it" I mean achieve your goals.  It's crazy out here in this economy man fo'real, this job hunt thing is a battle.  We are in a time that is so tough in the job market that you almost kinda have to find some faith just to apply, you get what I'm talking about.  It's like you have to fight that doubt that tries to set in at times when you're going out to an interview or applying online.  But I just thank God for everything and keep my head up and keep applying.  I was at Starbux and I was talking to this older guy who had his degree and all that and he lost his job in Colorado.  He spent all is savings and emergency money trying to make ends meet down there and when that was all out he had to move back to CT to live with his family members.  The one thing that I remembered most about him was that he kept his sense of humor, the whole time him and I were talkin' he was just telling jokes and stuff.  Now that I think about it he probably was laughing to keep from crying.  But hey, what can you do about the economy...nothing...I tell myself that I can't control the economy, but I can control my budget and I can control the number of times I apply.  So I met up with some financial adivsors to give me some sound advice and now I'm back appying for jobs again.  I'm doing the best I can with what I got and I now that God is going to bless me, but in the meantime I'm just fighting to be faithful.  One thing that put a smile on my face when I was down because I don't have the job I want nor do I have a job that requires my degree is that this economy is affecting everyone and it's not my fault that things are going the way they are, you know.  So if you feeling down, maybe you don't have the job you won't and you graduated and are now applying to a stiff job market, just remember that you are not the only one affected that everyone is feeling the affect of the economy.  Keep applying and keep working!! stay up and stay prayerful!!

August 8, 2009: I was here.

I don't know how to really describe the mood I'm in right now, I guess I'm fighting to keep my dream alive. Better yet fighting to keep high hopes during monotonous and mundane times. Right now, like all I do is work. I have two jobs and idk man like it feels like i rarely get to do what I want to do. During the days I don't have to work, I have to spend a certain amount of it catching up on rest. Now, I'm not complaining; I mean there are plenty of people out in the world that would die to be in my position. I just want to start experiencing something new, lately days have been kinda strange I guess. I mean when I was a kid I had a completely different vision for what life was going to be like ya know. For instance, have you ever waited anxiously for something because you thought that "something" was just gonna put you over the top and make you so happy and then you got that "something" and it didn't live up to your expectations. Thats the reality that I'm fighting right now with life. I'm fighting to keep the motivation I've always had for life, ya know the hope of "I have great things in store for me in the future". I don't know maybe this is just some phase I'm going thru, so if that's the case I thinks it's best that I KEEP GOING. I won't and can't stay living a monotonous hum drum lifestyle. I mean life is just so precious and so rich. I suppose that one day I'll look at this and laugh, I'll chalk it up to the period in my life where I had to learn a thing or two and it wasn't fun to go through. Well, I gotta get goin man, I got some planning to do and all that good stuff. Take care and God bless!